Facing Adulthood Strong? Possibly...

Waah! I haven't been in here for so long! But the reason why I've been away for so long is the topic of today's blog entry. This will be your typical average girl trying to make it into the real world so if you wanna stay then you may grab your snacks and enjoy reading and I'll try to make this as entertaining yet real as I can :). It has been over a year since I last did an entry since I did land a job somewhere in Manila. It was a decent job for a beginner like me and it somehow will be educational for me as a recently licensed professional. It was fine until some of the people in my office were creating lies about me. I had not known about this until I got transferred to another office for a higher paying job. I thought to myself that it was only right that I was transferred at that time because I didn't want to be around those kind of people on a daily basis. A few months into the new job I got, we were forced to face such challenging tasks. Preparations supposedly for a year became only for months. Demands of everyone involved were piling up. We've been doing our best to fulfill each tasks that was thrown at us but efforts were not being appreciated. It drained us mentally, physically, and emotionally to the point of us wanting to resign from the company completely. Having all of these hardships seem like they aren't worth my time, my effort, my attention, and my co-workers think so too for themselves. But despite all that, we've reached the end of that road. We were able to go out of hell. But of course, work doesn't stop from there and our boss was just a pain in the ass. This is where my family comes in. With so many rants about my current work life status, my mother and my sister push me to go look for another job - a job that is better paying and much more fulfilling than the one I have now. I've been trying, I really am. It was not that easy to go look for another job. And to top it all off, I just think companies are looking for someone more superior than I am. I am a mere nobody. I don't have much skills to brag. I don't have the knowledge to back me up if I go to the profession that I am supposed to be in. I just feel like no one would want me. So right now, I am still where I am. I've just been doing my job in a University as a Technical Assistant. I've been mostly writing, which is not really what a Psychometrician does (but I think it will be helpful if I ever go to that path, especially when doing reports). I've been planning on getting myself regularized there because I want to take up my Master's and it will be much cheaper if I become a permanent employee there. But I am not completely sure. Being not sure in life may be a nuisance to all, but it is what makes life colorful. It's what makes life more adventurous. I never expected to be doing minutes of meetings and writing communication letters when I was in college or in high school. But I know it will be a stepping stone towards something more beautiful. I don't know what exactly will I become when I grow older but I'll just hope for the best and just keep walking forward, and I hope whoever is reading this will feel optimistic too as we go on in this challenge called adulthood and this journey called life.